Ramblings of an eternal pessimist
so are you gonna give us the details on your worst xmas ever? i'm waiting w/baited breath!i've spent mine completely by myself which is really the perfect way to spend holidays. then you can do whatever the hell you want, when you want. my dad asked me to come to visit for xmas in washington state & i said no i couldn't afford it. so glad i couldn't!(not that i wouldn't mind seeing him & my stepmom but then i'd have to make the rounds of all my other relatives including my real mom the bitch & just not into THAT this year. i did it last year. plus the weather is always hideous in the pacific n.w. this time of year, ugh).
For the most part, I'm afraid I'm going to have to disappoint you with the details as they are kind of personal. Normally I hate telling part of a story, but I just had to write something about it because I haven't thought about anything else in 48 hours and it's actually making me sick. So I'm sorry, but I just can't go into detail here. The rest of the worst Christmas ever consists of the rest of the reasons I hate Christmas every year. Bitchy relatives, getting yelled at over nothing because my parents are stressed, my mother playing the martyr and my dad just adding fuel to the fire. I'm so sick of it I could puke. And just to add to the fun, I don't think I've felt this shitty in years and it's taking everything I've got just to keep from crying and paste a big fucking smile on my face, because heaven forbid that anyone realize that I'm not happy-pappy like I'm supposed to be.Sorry. It's been a really long, shitty couple of days and all things considered I think I'd like to just skip the whole next week.
s'ok dear, hang in there. it will improve, it always does. no need for the details. hope you feel better quickly.families are just so f'ed up! my fav saying i culled from my best friend is "PEOPLE ARE THE WORST!". and it's so true, they make life so miserable yet so enjoyable at times.so many times i really have to look at all the great things i have in my life that are positive and that help give me some perspective when things go awry. you have a good job(even if you're not wild about it) & a house of your own & good health. at the very least, xmas is over & you won't have to do the family thing too soon again. that has to be some major comfort right there!
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